Starving Artist Ink.

Airports bring me anxiety. When I was younger-I'd look forward to go, there was no better place! Papa would drive round and round into the parking garage. I always got wings-and was always shy as anything. Mom went on business trips often, they were always exciting. Drop her off, watching her pass through her gate and look out the window to see if we could see her in her tiny window. The best though, was to go and collect her-to bring flowers and hide behind your back and to see your momma again!

Airports bring anxiety to me now, because of all the goodbyes. The hardest goodbyes were done in airports, left to yourself, sobbing. As you walk through security-making  yourself sick from crying, your mind urges you on, but your heart is convincing you to turn around and run back.

Last night, as the anxiety approached-the car growing closer and closer to the incoming flights-it was all swept away by greeting my fairy, Lilly.

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I took the day off, dreadfully sick. After dropping The Mr. off to work-I came home, stole the babe from the crib and held her… fed her. and fell asleep with her.

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That's my girl.

At 4am papa woke me up…I went outside in my bare feets to watch the moon turn a brilliant colour of red. In the wee hours of the morning there was a lunar eclipse-and I watched it with my papa…cameras in hand.

I tried-but I didn't get a good enough picture to post…

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I need some help-this was taken on a tri-pod… I know it wasn't the right lens to use but that's what I have… I just don't know what setting I should use for great night shots with the Canon xti. Any hints? suggestions? please…

Also-on my way to pick up something for dinner, we came across someone else who had found themselves a dinner as well…

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If you were able to look closer-you can see the poor little foot of his innocent prey. I have to admit though-it was really cool to sit so close, watching.

A starving artist is an artist who sacrifices material well-being in order to focus on their artwork. They typically live on minimum expenses, either for a lack of business or because all of their disposable income goes towards art projects…

I can't exactly say the same for myself…

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SHOPPING! thats what we did today-for our place. Our place that we don't have. I bought glasses, mixing bowls, sheets, face clothes…

My favourite thing that we got today-our mixing bowls. Beautiful colours, I'm in love with them. Let's get a house-fill the bowls up with things, and stir all day.

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Would you like to stir with us?

If you want a drink-bring your own glass, we only have four. Eating dinner with us? Make sure you wash your hands really good, we dont have forks, knifes, or spoons. What we do have though-are MIXING BOWLS!

Today, I was nominated Employee of the Month. Oh yeah… considering that it was just decided yesterday that we would start doing this-and-that there are only three other people it could go to…

Anyway, the prize was great-

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The little card holder? That's made out of used, pulled staples-glued together… It's wonderful! All of the staples pulled from hundreds of papers, saved in a plastic cup-finally put to good use. Also, a lunch from Ninos Mexican. Yum!

Granny and Papa Ed were here when the Mr. and I got home-they brought apples. A bunch of apples, apples that we have nothing to do with but put them in a basket and take pictures of…

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great photo opportunity… no camera. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? oh wait…I have a HUGE expensive piece of equipment and no great bag to carry it in? yeah thats right. It seems like every morning that I think to myself, 'hmmm I should bring my camera with me'–I don't… and then I really really really wish I did.

Like for instance, today-the most beautiful, big, wonderful bird sized-moth. He was a giant. he made my day-I only wished I could have kept him to photograph… but no. the Co-workers and I put him in a box, with holes…and grass. He finally flapped his huge wings around until I got scared that he'd hurt himself, or that he was scared. We…let.him.go.

sigh. I missed it. why oh why.

which brings me to my next point. Camera Bag. Thats what I need. but not some douchey big canon bag. I don't want leather and black and bulky… I was thinking-a great thing to have made, or better-find, a belt.. tool belt like thing-that holds lens'. I think I would like that very much. Lets create it shall we?