Monthly Archives: June 2009

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coffee rings and things

things about my papa…

he is gentle, and quiet. but he’s also talkative and a story teller… (you just have to start asking the right questions)

he has this spark in his eyes… this light, that through no amount of pain, it’s still there… it lights up when you get creative, when you ask questions, when you talk about weird things… when you want to learn something new. when he wants to show you something. when he’s silly.

he gives me permission to see the world differently. to get excited over little things. he delights in teaching and learning and showing each other new things.

we had a set, (maybe two different sets, i can’t remember now) of encyclopedias growing up. anytime i’d ask papa a question about…anything, he’d first give me his answer, but if he didn’t know, he’d go get one of the books and flood my brain with all of the information. doing as much searching as he could to get it all–so we could learn about all of it.

he is an inventor. in the house, in the garage, in the kitchen, in his mind. he is incredibly talented and creative.

his imagination is as infinite as outer-space. and it lingers out there.. into new worlds.
i like to take a bit of it… i like to ask a bit of it. because i think it is so special to harvest and tend and cherish your imagination… it’s all we’ve got. and he never fails to supply me. he never fails to feed my imagination just as it craves.

he is a gentleman.

he is the smartest man i know.

i am his girl.

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every sentence i try to write, thinking about so many things i could say… as many stories that i could tell. i begin writing them, but then my throat gets all hot and tears start streaming down my cheeks…

my papa is an amazing man…

and i know that i am lucky to have that, because they are rare and unique.

and i am his girl…

today, i am…

grateful…for modern medicine.  i had some horrible allergic hay-fever attack earlier today. it’s never been so bad, or come on so fast… and it really scared me.

experimenting… in the kitchen. craving a brownie or some cake. trying to figure out how to make a good sweet without having eggs in the house. HMPH!  there are recipes. yep, there are. but might i have those other ingredients? of course not…   but i DID end up with a chocolate cake. it’s not amazing. ;-/

thinking… that it would be lovely to be at home. make a little family road trip somewhere and have a picnic and explore.

feeling… a mix of emotions. blah.

present.

play date

i’ve known bobbi for a wee bit through flickr.  (it’s amazing how the internet connects us all… it’s such a beautiful thing.)

i was completely blown away by her style… and the fact that she was irish. ha! how horrible is that of me? but really, you don’t find too many people from around here that have such a fresh style…who have such a relaxing, beautiful..comfortable feel.

er… it’s just that people and photographers here are generally ‘traditional’ or a horrible ‘hip’ thing gone wrong.

well.. anyway. that’s all besides the point.

bobbi is a breath of fresh air out here.

and she’s sweet to boot.

so we had been meaning to meet up a few times. she lives on the same side of the country as me, but she’s out in the country country.

our meetings never matched up-and then just during the weekend she said ‘how about tuesday?!’

and so, i boarded the bus(s) for a two hour bumpy journey to bog country.

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as you can see… the weather was lovely.

i mean, it wasn’t horrible and grey. but it wasn’t exactly sun and shine. (it’s GORGEOUS out here… i couldn’t stop staring out the window thinking about all of the possibilities and locations. too bad i don’t have a car..)

so we just got out there. she said she didn’t mind being cold. good for her! ;-p

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and then we played.. and hid under the trees when it’d start to rain.. come back out from the shelter and take more pictures.. and hide again.

regardless.

i think we had fun.

and i’m pretty sure that she loves the pictures! which makes me SO happy. this was my first time taking professional photos with an animal. and a big one at that! and i am thrilled with the outcome.

you can see more of the session here (erin darcy photography)

where wild things roam

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i’m exhausted… and want to stay awake all night so i can edit all of the photos that i took today.

but i think i will leave this sweetness with you.

this is bobbi- roberta cotter. she is an amazing local photographer.

she has a horse, mia.

they belong together… mia is easily her baby, not by the way bobbi treats her-but how mia needs to see her, be near her, have her watch… ‘hey mom! look at me! look what i’m dooooing!’

they are a sweet pair.

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: ) goodnight my sweets.

and thank you, bobbi and mia.

monday monday

1.nettles. fuckers. NETTLES.

yowch. my hands are stinging.. a leaf fell off of the fecking thing and landed on my toe. JUST barely landed. maybe it just blew it a kiss–and my toe is still on fire from it. arrrrgh. WHAT IS THE POINT OF THEM? WHAT GOOD DO THEY DO FOR THE EARTH?

baaah hum bug.

2. hexagons.

they are a bitch to draw. have you tried drawing one? go ahead.. try it. it looks SO easy right? simple little lines.. all the same length…

sigh.

3. pear cider. delicious. i’m still searching for strawberry though.. dreaming of it. mmm…

4. today is a hamburger day. beautiful and sunny and summery. but no hamburgers will be had.

5. heading to bog country tomorrow. la le la le laa. very excited about photos that will happen.

6. ready to use my camera. sorry no photos today. i mean.. i’d show you some nettles.. and some hexagon stuff.. uhm. yeah.

7.  laughing and laughing at alan carr. eeee i love him. i want to put him in my pocket.

go look him up, his stand up is on youtube.

8. wanna rent a car and take a road trip around ireland with me?

yeah.. i’d like to do that too. it’s not gonna happen. i can’t imagine driving in ireland.. eep! but doesn’t that idea sound lovely. mmm.

how’s your monday monday?

randoms as of late

my eyes are tired. tired because they’ve been sore and screaming at me all day long. tired because they just want a cold rag on them and sleep… and i won’t give in.

my sweet house guest won’t be coming for the stay. i’m bummed out, but i don’t blame her for not wanting to travel while she’s sick. the worst place to be when sick is on a train, bus, and plane… and she’d have all three-and not even have the comfort of her own bed. hope that she gets to feeling better though! and there’s always a next time. plane tickets between ireland and england are super cheap.  la la.

i am SUPER excited about a shoot coming up this tuesday though! i’m heading out to bog country… thick accents that are difficult to understand. to play with a little friend, and amazing photographer. my head is flooded with ideas of the pictures i want to take of her and her horse. HORSES MA! horses… er. horse. i’ll be sure to smell her enough for everyone.

there is nothing like the smell of a horse. it’s so rich and earthy and everything wonderful.

okay.. there are a few other scents that are amazing and wonderful. but horse is top of the list.

i’m on a mission to find strawberry cider this week. i tried pear cider and it was delicious. tipsy in a can…and a headache following. but strawberry cider? doesn’t that sound divine?!

i also plan on making hamburgers. hopefully we get a good ‘hamburger evening’. (it always feels like summer when i make hamburgers. it was one of the first meals i made when we moved into this house last may)

my no chocolate, no coke diet hasn’t gone as smooth sailing after steven’s birthday. i knew that on that day i would allow myself to indulge and have the sweets.. but it’s been hard going getting back on that little wagon. i’ve been mostly good with the coke issue though-but i have had a few sups. baaaah hum bug!

reminds me to get some wax paper so i can re-make the no-bake cookies. or wait… no. yes. no. yes. NO. YESSSSS. i have to re-make them. they didn’t turn out proper. i have to get them right!

i’ll feed them to the hungry. and poor.. and sick. and my thighs.

…trying to drink enough water so it doesn’t matter. as if i can cheat and my body/brain won’t know…

le sigh

okay sweet little chitlins. i guess i will finally give in to the eyes.

i hope that you are having a wonderful weekend, and i’ll try to take some photos during mine.

tea, mugs & china cups

…and coffee too.

but my papa would say that it isn’t coffee unless it’s black.

that’s right…

no milk, and certainly no sugar.

bleuck!

besides… i can’t drink coffee unless it’s half milk, and three spoons of sugar.

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needless to say-i don’t do it often.

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but do you remember a while back-when i mentioned something about collaborating with some other photographers and coffee drinkers? how we would put together a book of images… where all the proceeds raised would go to helping one sweet little boy get the medicine and help he needs for autism.

well now, the pot has brewed…

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and it’s being served in your favourite cup. (my papa rarely washes his in the dishwasher.. just rinses it.. lets the inside stay stained for a while… i guess it adds flavour to the mug.– he almost always always has it in the same mug)

go tell your barista to make up your something special, and flip through this little sweet that is just perfect for your coffee loving coffee table.

please take a moment and preview the book here

*all profit made from purchases with lulu go directly to sara smalley and her son.  to learn more about hekili, or to donate directly to their fund-visit here.

you are loved.

‘creative’ fit

i threw a fit the other night…

that’s not much of a surprise around this house lately. with hay fever forcing me at war with my face. with my nose. my eyes. my FACE.

at war with my body and clothes that go on it.

but mainly… at war with the creatives.

a few nights i was patient…contacted by a sweet asking for something that i could COMPLETELY do.

….any…other…time.

so i started doing some research for inspiration. trying to find that holy grail of..whatever. that would kick it all in gear and get this started.

all i need is for the pencil to glide across the paper, that’s all i’m asking.

pish posh.

so after three nights of waiting. of furious drawing.

i got out some brown paper to help.. threw it across the floor.. sketch sketch sketch.

scratch that.

maybe a shot of vodka will bring me closer?

pfft…

nope.

just giggly, and a husband that calls me his little alcoholic. and pours me a cup of tea.

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i felt like in a past life, i was some man… a french man. with fingers stained of charcoal. womanizing and a complete drunk… i had a goatee and welcomed naked women in so i could draw them, and seduce them.

because this is EXACTLY what i was trying to do the other night.

only.. less welcoming naked women into my house… ;-p

and so my fit sits on the living room floor. days later.

i walk past it.

step over it.

i don’t dare touch it….

waiting for a storm. a deep thunder and lightning, that rumbles in the pit of your stomach storm. to take over and thrash the house about…

finding myself

i’m learning that i have to be my own advocate of my health.

i have to seek the answers.

i sometimes have to self diagnose to get some where…

supply certain information to get treatment.

find people out there who have done it before.

push myself. push others. get these elbows out there and start throwing them. until i knock some doctor out and get what i need.

okay…. maybe not yet.

i won’t go giving anyone a black eye…

but i’m starting to feel better about where i am.

starting to feel more confident in myself.

when i started this journey, i felt very… unsure.

full of anger, and questions, and… wondering who i would be if i couldn’t carry a baby. wondering how that would effect who i am-how that would effect how i treat people.

last month i started to wake up.

a negative pregnancy test-i could handle that…

but not being able to trust my body? feeling.. lost. hopeless. like i was starting all over again? that-is what i had a hard time with.

listening to a doctor not…really tell me anything. not listen to me. not really look at me.

that is what i had a hard time with.

this month i feel more in control. that i have options, that i have plans… that i feel more at peace. that i know in my heart of hearts that i’ll be a mama (and steven a papa) one way or another.

today, i feel more okay with saying this aloud. with writing it in public.

right now,  i feel good on my journey. in where i am.

i’m starting to wake up… and feel like i’m starting to come full circle.

i don’t know how long i have ahead of me. but today, i feel like i can face it all. because i feel so full…so sure. so open that steven and i will have our family-no matter what.

and you’ll be along for the ride.

never trust a skinny cook

so yesterday i was supposed to make steven’s favourite for dinner, but we gorged ourselves on chocolate instead.

so tonight i made his dinner for him.

pfft. it’s pathetic. and delicious. and easy peasy. and could feed and entire family. but we just feed our faces….

you know how they say that you gain weight when you get married? all that happy-in-love…comfortable uhh whatever?

it’s so true…

i feed us. and i love feeding him.

actually, i LOVE feeding people. i love feeding them tons of food.

i love people enjoying what i cook.

i love reading recipes. but it’s dangerous… because i want to cook it all, and eat it all.

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mmm doesn’t that look good? noodles and peas. i just love the way the white and green looks together. i want to smother it with some cheese… or drizzle it with something and add more something and make it into a light summery salad thing. only-not your sunday potluck stuff… with whole tomatoes and shower caps over the top. do you know what i’m talking about? i just think of grandmothers. and cold vinegary gross noodle salads.

so nothing like that. that’s not what i’m imagining with this goodness.

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but then i ruined it by mixing it with a tomato sauce and some grilled chicken.

i thought about doing the peas separately, but i didn’t want to have another pot to wash.

oh who am i kidding?

i don’t wash the pots.

that’s stevens job.

i just mess them.

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but then i saved it by smothering it in cheese.

when in doubt

smother in cheese.

it will always win.

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bake until the cheese is all melty bubbly goodness.

ahhhh…

domestic goddess in the house. ;-p