Starving Artist Ink.

i’m feeling completely at peace.

so any of you following along in my fertility journey… i went in today to meet with a specialist and finally get a solid bit of answers.

wanting a baby or not, it’s important to take care of yourself, to take care of what makes you a woman… to understand what is going on with your body, especially when there is something off.

today, i was finally able to have a full diagnosis, and sit in a beautiful room with a doctor who listened, asked questions, and gave me answers.

i had an ultra sound scan done today- they were able to show me the cysts in my ovaries, but he was very confident that with treatment i would be able to get pregnant. PCOS, he said- is the best thing to have if you do have any fertility issues. the most easily treated, and high success rates.

it’s amazing to me, that since i began this journey in 2007-the amount of women i have learned, in my little circle, that have  PCOS, or some other (in)fertility issue.

it’s all still such an emotional roller coaster. lying on the bed, i was expecting to hear those words… last week i wondered if i should prepare myself for something worse. and even though i was 99.9% confident that it would be polycystic ovaries, it didn’t stop be from feeling a bit weepy seeing that there…

right now, i feel calm… collected. peaceful. in no rush.

i feel like there is a plan, and if that one doesn’t work, there is a back-up, and another back-up, and another back-up. and that i have finally found someone who is confident in me, and willing to help.

and i feel that all i need right now is the confidence in myself.

i think i can start to try that approach. : )